Beautiful Day

DESPITE the fact that I have a 4-5 page essay due in less than 24 hours. I feel truly blessed.

I had a drink with one of my teacher this morning and it was just great to catch up with her. I just thank God for putting her in my life. Not only was she my teacher but she was also a mentor to me in class and spiritually. She gave me lots of guidance and cared when I was in need and I just thank God for that relationship. We went for tea ( even though I had a strong craving for mango smoothie, sadly the bubble tea shop was closed) and sat there for at least an hour+ just talking about what's currently going on in both our lives.

My adviser advised me to apply out of state because I have a better chance in getting accepted than in-state. And I told my teacher about my dilemma and my reluctant to do so. And she left me with a thought, was I a goer...God made some people to stay within their community but there are some he sends them out to grow...I can't explain all the details but it gave me a little more confidence and to consider in looking at other schools and explore my limits!

After that I had class and recently I learned to be more confidence in class even though it might be intimidating at times to be in a class full of intellects. But hey if I'm in that class my IQ could not be that bad. And I guess I was right about that since I received an CHECK PLUS on my first assignment in my Writing EXPO class. Was really proud of myself knowing I'm on the right track and like I said before it now or never.

Later after class was over I headed to prayer service and prayer as always was powerful. Today though I feel like I just got deliver all my worries and burden just gone knowing he is going to send his angels to help me through. Essays, professors, people, and etc I just didn't feel dismay anymore. Whatever bothered me before was gone. And right after service I just feel great and I had the chance to talkto someone who I really havent been talking to and she invited me over for LASAGNAS! ( Yum!) God is so good since I really haven't ate all day. It was the first time I went inside and I got to meet her mom and her sick brother. It was memorable just to giving them a friendly hug and chatting with them. There was a moment where I felt like crying...it reminded me how it was to see my grandpa in Hong Kong. I just so happy for her that she has a family that love her so much. And looking at her I know God is going to bless her lots. I just can't wait and see, seeing other bless encourages me so much knowing he has the same for me. AHHHHHHHHHHHH! And just to chat with others I never had a chance to, just a great feeling.

And a great way to start a paper...

.....And thats where I'm off to. TATA !

- Courage Man

Reminder

Saw it on a Sister page/status, so powerful and a good reminder!

Seven Good Ways to Get Free of Negative Emotions.

1. Refuse to be anxious

2. Refuse to be ruled by anger.

3. Refuse to be dissatisfied.

4. Rufuse to be envious.

5. Refuse to be depressed.

6. Refuse to be bitter.

7. Refuse to be hopeless.

- Courage Man

6.27.10

I'm going to wait and see....

Grow Grow Grow!

" You need to try everything, one of them is bound to work" - Bryan

Who knew one math advice on a beautiful sunny day in Harvard Yard can inspire you in so many ways. I thought about that going back to my dorm. It's true, how do you know something is not going to work if we don't try and explore our options?

I'm thankful for the people in my life who are so patient with me.

Everyday you learn something new about yourself from somebody. I was having a conversation with one of the Deacon from my church about people views on church and what he say was true, its all stereotypes. What they say they know could all be ignorance. People don't really know what it means to be a Christian, they think being a christian means church and religion. But it is your relationship with God, it is all about relationship. Without relationship with the Lord what you heard about him is meaningless if you don't know him and believe what he can do in your life.

I told him about what goes through my mind and how I don't really know how to react to people and their comments. And I just don't know what to really do in general. There are just too many questions and thoughts in my mind. And he said to me, its because I'm growing. Which stun me because I realized there was no shame of being doubtful sometimes or thinking too much about a matter is all part of the growing process and it's a matter of time I'm going to see the growth in me. Growing in experience!

WATERING MY TREE OF KNOWLEDGE MUHAHAHA

- Courage Man

Post #1

So I have decided to start a BLOG! In the past I have failed to commit or write about my feelings. I'm hoping this would be different and hoping to see the difference in me through my journey in life!

I have been living in Harvard for only 5 days but it already feels like I have been here for years. My mom has been calling me constantly every night asking me motherly questions like: Have you ate? Have you shower? Don't sleep so late! Though it might seem annoying to others, I really appreciate those little stuff she does showing me how much she cares and misses me. Because knowing myself, I get so distracted I barely do call home and update her how I'm doing. And I appreciate all my friends from school and outside from the program visiting and calling me.

It's crazy how this is my last year. And I know I'm going to make it happen. I look at my first year then the year after, never have I really pushed my limits. And this year I know I'm going to make it happen, its rather now or never. Knowing myself I'm a very sub-conscious girl and very doubtful. But I know I have the Lord on my side and he will give me the strength everyday to focus and guide me to what and where I need to be. First week almost over and the stress haven't really erupt yet but I know as time goes by it's going to get overwhelming but I also will be ready to fight and CONQUER! ( Rawr?)

- Courage Man