Paradise

Nothing really eventful has really happen these couple of weeks. Nothing really eventful happen since school really started.

I guess this season all I'm trying to do is stay focus.

There is something heavy on my heart, something I can't describe. But I still have joy and faith.

I guess seeing the people around me and the task increasing before my eyes every second has overwhelm me.

It has exhaust me. But I thank God for his reminders. Thank him for his word to keep me going.

I bumped into my Pastor in the halls one day at school, and I was trying not to give it away that I have been struggling trying to keep up with everything.

But he said to me not to look at it as a struggle, don't think so negatively. Which stun me a bit because I really needed to hear that and he never stop to amaze me how he always catches me at the RIGHT time just when I needed something. Thank God for him.

I thought about what he said. Anything could be a struggle if you want it to be. The question is do you still keep it as a struggle? When you have a mindset that your going to fail and that you can't do it. You won't be able to just cause you keep telling yourself you can't. And that's the same with struggle, you can't keep looking at , how hard it is or " how am I ever going to get through it."

I honestly don't know what point I'm trying to make or what I'm writing. I just felt the need to write that and ranting I guess.

While I was cleaning my room today I found a note a friend wrote to me. " Remember suffering is God's tool...to change his people."

Yesterday..well 2 days ago now. I left the house a little bit later than I should for the SAT. My dad gave me a ride but he said that I was going to be late. And I told him I can't be late for the SATs. But of course there's nothing he could have done about that. It was my fault for waking up late. He kept repeating about how were going to be late. And that's when I tested my faith in God. I kept saying to myself, God you can do it, Lord I believe in you I believe you can help me get there on time.

...And every stop light we reached was green. Every red line we were about to encounter turned green at the right time. I got to Roxbury Community College with a minute to spare. How could I denied my God? That might be a small testimony or a small thing he done for me. But it was HUGE reminder to me that He is here and He's listening to me and know what I'm going through.

He's RIGHT here as I'm typing.

Whatever happens I have faith He is going to make everything alright! I'm holding on to HIM and his promises. And waiting on my miracle.

LET'S GO!

- Courage Man