I had a really powerful prayer this morning. Where I felt really intimate to God like I have never did before. I felt like I was really honest to Him and finally address somethings in my life that I told Him before but never had I pour it whole in prayers.
It felt good like something was finally off my chest. I can't say everything has been good. There been its ups and downs.
Only God and I know but never really have I given up my situation to the Lord. And that was what I was lacking, talking to Him.
What goods are my thoughts? Wrestling with your emotions and your mind?
When I finally really prayed on it, I discover new things inside of me that was hidden which God already see but I havent.
The power of prayers is amazing.
After getting a taste this morning, I just want to be realer with God and to be closer to Him. He does not ask of me a fancy prayer. Or asking me to be conscious on what I pray on.
But just the truth.
I hope to be more honest to God, let Him have the whole of me and not hold back on my thoughts.
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This past Friday/Saturday we had our City Debate Tournament..the last debate tournament of the season and the last debate for my high school career.
I prayed hard and I tried to keep my faith but on Saturday I was losing my faith in getting into the quarters since I havent made it throughout the whole season.
As we were waiting for the results, I was losing a bit of faith until the results came out. I looked at the paper just to see my name (and partner) on the quarterfinals sheet. I was SHOCK.
God never cease to amaze me. He never fails.
I felt guilty that I have even doubted Him. But I thank Him for proving Himself to me.
He can NEVER fail me.
It was a bit disappointing when me and my partner thought we made it to semi but it turned out that they messed up the ballots. It was a heart breaking moment. But I still give thanks to God to even making it to the quarters.
I thought to myself, "Wow what if I had just a lil bit more faith?"
I wouldnt know now, I wish I could change my attitude but I'm just going to have to learn NOW and find new opportunities to test my faith in God.
No matter what He is still great and MIGHTY! No other God I know.
Yesterday at church a sister testified saying how much she loves God in every bone in her body. So powerful. It bought chills to my soul.
Lately there been some disappointments, somethings I can't understand, and frustration.
God help me to be more temperate, to be more patient, and to have more faith in you.
Transform me, mold me God in the image of your purpose. God, sometimes when we look down on ourselves or even the people in the world put us down. God you're the one who comes and pick me up. God when I don't see anything good in myself. You always seem to see some value in me. I thank you God. Teach me today Lord despite of everything that I learn to be patient and wait as long as it take for you to come through and for you to make me whole. Because it's about your will not mine. Through the storms and the sunshines God teach me to love everything unconditionally just like you did. I'm not perfect but the God I serve is. How bless am I!
Amen
- Courage Man
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