I have been feeling really uneasy this whole week
Figuring out that one of your closest friends has lost a love one in their family is hard. What hurts the most is to hear it from someone else. And your friend has no intention in sharing this news with you.
I did not realize how distant I have become with some people till this week. It's a odd recognition. Because I don't really know what to do with this new found fact.
Do I just go along with it? Do something to change it?
Answer: None
The only thing I have really been doing is thinking, and it has built a lot of negativity in me this week and a lot of confusion.
Thoughts where I try to draw up an conclusion on how did it turned out this way. The root and what to do?
In a way I feel all by myself.
No one where I can turn to or even know how to express how I feel in words/describe this emotion.
There are somethings that my friends have done that hurts me. Times where I want to direct my thoughts and frustration to them.
But I must learn to forgive and move on. And direct my focus on God.
It's never easy especially how your your feeling at that moment.
Reminders on that is: LOVE & REACTION
The hardest is to bare with those feelings during that particular moment. Especially when you can't feel God's presence with you. It's hard. But at the same time it is a test.
What I want to remind myself during those times is God's Love.
Friday's Scripture was:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
God has never left me because He loves me. That is why Jesus has died on the cross so that I may live. He knows my every thoughts and every move. He sees everything so there is nothing to worry or to be confuse about. I'm in His hands and He has already made a path for me even though I can't see it.
And learn not to react to my negative thoughts, do not give Satan any opportunity in my life. But be grateful and learned how to love like God.
Show love to the people I care about and also to those that are hard for me to love and forgive.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jeremiah 29:11
Prayer: Lord God, though it is natural for me to feel how I do because I'am still human and made of flesh. But God you have given me a soul to receive what YOU want from me. And God that souls yearns more and cries out to you despite what the flesh and Satan may say. Pray God that you will forgive me for my ways, for my thoughts and the way I have treated some people. God help me to see my faults and confess my sins, for there is no one to blame but myself. God I just pray you take me back to the roots of my problems that I have caused so that I may be able to heal and fixed it, not by strength but by yours. I pray God that you send your Angel of Peace to me, to my mind and to my spirit. That I may do good work in you and continue to move forward not looking back or looking around in question. God help me not to lean on my understanding but acknowledge you, for God I do not think like you and you said already in your Words that you already have a plan for me. God you know my every thought, and in every dark times in my life, you was there. Help me to see the light and help me to have faith to know that you have never forsaken me and that you're still working and molding me to do your work and to be perfect in you. God is because you love me you died for me on the cross. Even before I was born God you already knew my name, you chosen me. I was purchased by your blood and I'am forever grateful. Your grace is enough for me. Every time when I failed, your grace give me new opportunities to try again. What a mighty and forgiving God I serve! Hallelujah! God despite how I feel and despite what I'm going through, I trust you. I love you so much and Thank you for loving me unconditionally.
Let me get it right this time!
In Jesus Mighty Name, Amen
- Courage Man
P.S. Sometimes one apology really does make a difference. Brightens up your day!
Update at 10:28 PM
God is so great He has answer my thoughts and this post in our morning prayers today.
"Rejoice in the Lord alway; and again I say, Rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
(Philippians 4:4-7)
God is a true God and the only God. The Word He has spoken to me through the pulpit is what I need. It is better what I can find in the bible myself because He knows what I need to apply to my life. How can I ever denied Him!? He has never left my side and knows what I need everyday.
Thank Him for another Sunday to worship Him and wonderful fellowships with my brothers and sisters of Christ. Even if we did lose in Dominos. :)
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