Highlights Of My Day
- 2 Midterms DONE
- Chai Tea
- Overcoming a Text
- Black Student Union Fashion Show Audition
- Prayers
"No. 26! It's your turn!"
Catwalks and modeling is out of my character. I don't know what came over me in trying out.
...Me and my 2 inch heel going down the "mini" platform...pose...then walk back.
It was not something I was really comfortable with but lately I been willing to try new things.
Thanking my roommate and friends for helping me with my walk before the audition! #Yayay
Me and my roommate have been up since 6 am but still we are full of energy right now.
Thanking God for helping me getting through today with 2 Midterms and other stuffs in between that had to get done. Truly today every hour was spent wisely and productively. From the help of some pomegranate green tea and chai!
There never seem to be a pause button. You just have to go with the flow.
Prayer tonight was wonderful and very insightful. It did not go the way how it usually does but that was where the spirit led us and I'm grateful.
Usually we have a opening prayer, a scripture/testimony, prayer, closing prayer.
I had already prepared a scripture from Ecclesiastes 3:1-11...but instead today we started with testimony before reading the word...and somehow it broke into a long discussion. Everyone was sharing their stories and the lessons they have learned from their walk with God.
Standing there all I could do was take in what was being said...drowning in the goodness and the unity God has put in that moment. Before you know...we were talking for an hour in our prayer group...all related back to Ecclesiastes 3:1-11.
It's amazing how God operates...and I'm just speechless.
I am learning so much from others in the prayer group and they are also helping me learn more about myself.
After prayers someone said something to me....which made me felt so happy...and unworthy at the sametime.
...The lyrics from The Only Thing by Ronnie Freeman that goes "The only thing that's good in me is Jesus." fits perfectly in my reaction from their comment.
Everytime when I ask God to be glorify in my life, MY interpretation from this request was having people see something different in me from afar. But tonight I learned that is not how God is glorify...or at least that is not how He is using me right now.
It's the people who are close to you that needs to see God being glorify in your life.
If the people who are close can't see...how do you expect strangers to see as well?
When those words came out of my friend's lips...in wanting to change their life...from what they saw in me...from what they have been feeling in the prayer group.
Inside I was so happy and excited for them that they have come to this conclusion. But inside I also wanted to break down and get on my knees and say it's not me. All the glory goes back to God...I am just a tool...I'm not worthy at all....
It was the first time I really felt God being glorify in my life...and reminds me you don't know who is watching your life...
I thank her for her honesty...I thank her because she encourage me also the be friendlier.. when I don't want to. To be a nicer and warmer person to others....
I'm so thankful to God for making it this far...and I'm going to keep on going...no matter what.
I remember a sister said in church on Sunday, "I'm not letting anything get in the way in what God has for me."
Prayer: Lord God I'm thankful for another day just to breathe and smile on this earth not by myself but with your presence near and with friends accompanying me. I'm thankful because I have made it this far with you and I know it's just the beginning. As I sit here on this cold floor...in my residential hall...I look around and think, "Look what the Lord have done!" Sometimes I can't believe I'm at Holy Cross...or even in college...though I always knew I wanted to go to college...you had a different plan for me. Never would I have known about a prayer group. Never would I have known the plans you had for me here...I still don't know the whole game plan but it's ok. Never would I have known my worth in your eyes. God help me to rely on you even more tomorrow. I'm out of words on how amazing you are. I can't describe how much I need you each day. I don't know what else to say but THANK YOU...and feel my heart. This is my prayer. I love you Jesus. Help me to fall more in love with you each day. This is my desire. Amen.
- Courage Man
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