Thursday - another Miracle Prayer Night.
Lord...entering your sanctuary...coming to this prayer night...I had expectations from you...I knew I will never be the same...you never cease to amaze me...I'm in awe.
Going to this Miracle Prayer Night...I learned a little bit more about myself. It reminded me how in our lives there are always going to be some blind spots. Coming to the miracle prayer tonight...I thought I knew what I needed to work on. I thought I knew what I needed to bind and lose. But God showed me there are still other things in ME that needs to be address.
I been reading the bible a little bit more lately...I started journaling lessons I learned...scriptures...and prayers. I thought I was growing and learning so much...in some ways I am. But all of those doings did not help me to see the sins that I was not aware of.
Tonight at prayers...we had to gather in a group of 5 or 6, each person gets in the middle of the circle and say their prayer request on what they want to bind and lose in their lives. Thank God for the power of the Holy Spirit...the brother who was praying for me when I was in the middle bound somethings that I need which I didnt say in my prayer request...which I was grateful...cause if it wasn't for that...I wouldn't have saw what I needed to see. When we were done praying for one another...we worshipped. As I worshipped the Lord...I felt so convicted...so guilty...I..myself started to bind those things I was not aware of before...but I still felt heavy...in my mind I'm thinking, "How can I keep doing this to God..."...."I should have known...."
and in the midst of that...God said..."I love you." Even despite my mistakes and my sins...all my wrongdoing God loves me anyhow. I praised Him even louder because I remember that nothing can take me away from Him....and He will never forsake me. I cannot say that in an instant following right after prayer, everything went right. No. I'm going to have to keep working on it...going to have to keep praying...and improving. I must go through it. Like our church theme this year: break out and break through. God never left. Because He love me...He will help me along the way.
Tonight at prayers...we had to gather in a group of 5 or 6, each person gets in the middle of the circle and say their prayer request on what they want to bind and lose in their lives. Thank God for the power of the Holy Spirit...the brother who was praying for me when I was in the middle bound somethings that I need which I didnt say in my prayer request...which I was grateful...cause if it wasn't for that...I wouldn't have saw what I needed to see. When we were done praying for one another...we worshipped. As I worshipped the Lord...I felt so convicted...so guilty...I..myself started to bind those things I was not aware of before...but I still felt heavy...in my mind I'm thinking, "How can I keep doing this to God..."...."I should have known...."
and in the midst of that...God said..."I love you." Even despite my mistakes and my sins...all my wrongdoing God loves me anyhow. I praised Him even louder because I remember that nothing can take me away from Him....and He will never forsake me. I cannot say that in an instant following right after prayer, everything went right. No. I'm going to have to keep working on it...going to have to keep praying...and improving. I must go through it. Like our church theme this year: break out and break through. God never left. Because He love me...He will help me along the way.
I learned that there is always always something to work on. And the truth hurts. But knowing the truth is when we're set free. I'm sure there are still many blind spots in my life that I can't see right now...but God will bring it up in due time.
Until then...I will keep pressing forward.
Until then...I will keep pressing forward.
Prayers: Lord...thank you for loving a sinner like me. Thank you for dying on the cross that I may able to live and be in communion with you. God, thank you for your grace and mercy...each time I fall...and each time I sin...lead me to a repentance heart...cause God I can't do this by myself. I need you Lord to make it. Help me to accept the truth and let you have your way. Let your will be done in me today.
In Jesus Name.
In Jesus Name.
Amen.
- Courage Man
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