Love&Grace

Last night I had experience and did one of the worst things I could have done as a teenager. And yet instead of ending it in a catastrophic. I found love, forgiveness, and deliverance. In one night I saw myself in a new light.

I'm so bless to have such a great father, great parents in general that cares so much about me and always supports me. That even when I'm wrong that they still love me. And that is how God is. I thank God for last night though it must be one of my greatest regret in life..if it haven't been last night I would have never been deliver from many things that has been hindering me.

I seen now that I'm still young and immature that there is still a lot to learn. That I have more than enough and I have nothing to complain. And all the advices where once I thought was all jabber that annoyed me coming from my parents are now all true...that they were right. I alway knew that I was an impatient person but last night I really figure out HOW impatient I was. That this is why I haven't seen the results I wanted in the past and right this very moment. Is because I haven't learn to take everything one step at a time.

I prayed so hard and I ask God why..and I asked him what I was doing wrong. And I remember one of the Sister in the church said...God does want to bless you but he can't bless you if your still in your old habits. Something needs to be taken out of you before God can do so. I remember I posted this in the past. But I prayed to God to show me what needs to be taken out of me...and he showed me last night from my mistake..what it is. And I thank him for that. But I just pray that I don't have to be safe by his grace each time to see that He is there. I do not want the only way to change or to be better is by making big mistakes each time. I don't wish to keep begging him for forgiveness and mercy for the same things. I must be moving forward...

Tonight Prayer Service was about discernment. To discern what God is trying to tell us, what he want us to do. And I just prayed that he give me wisdom and teach me to discern what he has to say to me. And prayed that I learn to discern spiritually and mentally.

Despite it all..God hears us..even though we might not be able to feel him or hear him at times. He hears every prayer..he does not leave any prayer unanswered. And he has sure answer mine this season. And for the things that are still unsolved I believe in all my heart he will make a way. I been praying for deliverance and a job this whole August. And this morning someone emailed me saying that I have got the job at the Law Firm, that their boss have chosen ME out of all the other applicants. And I thank God for that. I claim my blessing right now.

Continue to pray for my strength and faith. With every struggle there is a opportunity.

- Courage Man