Letter 4

Dear God,
I forget how great it is to spend time with people you love. I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to meet up with so many old friends and giving me the chance to meet some new people today. Thank you for filling every minute with laughter and joy and I pray that you continue to prosper it.
I hope God that I will be real with people and especially with my relationship with you. The greatest joy I learn today is being with people who makes you laugh! People who brings the best out of you not only that but you must learn to bring yourself out..to not hold back your personality but allow it to shine!
I was sitting next to one of my friend all night at the Cheesecake Factory and through her I learned that when you have a really great relationship with someone...there is no need in trying to gain their attention or win their love over...but when a friendship is true...the attention you give each other will automatically be there. Sometimes you can't measure how close you're with a person; the chemistry and the body language says all.
Jesus I ask you today to help me to learn more about real friendship...and I pray God that you will place real friendships and relationships in my life that will help me to grow as a person and I may somehow contribute somewhere in their lives. Don't allow me to fall into peer pressure, influences (that may not be good for me), the need to impress, or become someone that I am not.
I ask you to keep this feeling I feel right now hidden in my heart. The joy, the laughter, the confidence, and the pureness of it all.

I was on the phone with a friend the other night and she was telling me how she is more social and spends more time out with friends. But she told me the way she made friends was by asking questions about them and being a good listener...what was so deep was the next thing she said, "I may know everything about them but they don't know anything about me." She was explaining to me how all those who calls them their "friend" are people who are consumed in themselves and think they're closer to them by talking about themselves. My friend made a point how they never asked her anything about her. I thought that was so deep because of the deception. So many people go on facebook and look at others people pictures and assumed how social and how popular they may be when they don't know the real story. I realize so many people online fake their happiness and make it seem they're enjoying life when it is really all a cover up for loneliness, depression, or insecurities. There are some who take pictures with everyone and to the audience it may seem like they're having a great time and they have a lot of friends when in reality it could be a different story.
The internet allows you to become someone you want people to think you're.
That was a reason why I got rid of my Instagram because I felt like I was only taking pictures to display this IMAGE of me loving life when really I was going through.
It might be a reason why I was never a big fan of uploading pictures online or even taking them...I spend too much time living in the moment and it is a positive thing! The only downfall sometimes is not having a picture to hold on to the great memories..(something I am still working on...taking more pics.)
Another reason why I thought it was so deep was because so many time during my first year in college I was a little disappointed on how I didnt make as much friends as I wanted to. I made a good amount but not enough relationships that I can claim are solid. And from the conversation I had with my friend...I realize I have nothing to be ashamed of. Because if being close to people and making more friends mean for me to be a certain way then I am not being true to myself. Also I am a strong believer that good friends are HARD to find! Not everyone is going to be your best friend...I believe 1 or even 2 friends are enough for me...to help me carry through...to bring me ENDLESS joy and laughter.
Thank you God for showing me that...I pray that you will help me to be true with my relationship with others/focusing on the honesty of it and most importantly to be true to myself.

I love you Jesus!
Thank you for being my best friend. :)

Love your daughter, Mandy.