Letter 5

Dear God,
I just want to start out this letter by asking for your forgiveness for writing this letter a day late. I have no excuse and I accept my fault. But no matter what I will continue writing and committing to what I said I will do.
Lord you never cease to amaze me.
Your wisdom and power is unsearchable on this earth.
I am still so thankful for you and I humble myself for giving me the opportunity to lead a prayer last night. Cause God you knew my heart before I stepped into that prayer. You knew my thoughts when I was driving there. But still you God...you gave me that phone call and you wanted to use me as a vessel. God...who am I that you're mindful of me?
Jesus my human heart can be so selfish sometimes...it desires so many things that arent of or like you. I ask you today to cleanse me from my impureness. I ask to walk with more faith and with less of my own intentions and expectations.
My eyes could be so deceiving...it see what it wants/likes and gets sad when it cannot achieve that thing.
Help me Jesus to fully lean on you and pray the right prayer. To be mold and create again in your hand as the daughter you called me to be.
I deny myself. I deny all my desires...to see your glory. Be glorify in my life.
Remind me when I don't see things going the way I wanted to...or how I thought it should've been...that my ways are not Your ways.
Your ways are perfect...and it is great...it is beyond my understanding. And your ways contain blessings that are unimaginable and beyond any of my imaginations or my expectations. It is better than my ways.
So help me today God to follow you through the good and the bad. And let you have your way that I may walk into my blessing..into your understanding and I may be glad and satisfied.
Though I may not be where I am suppose to be right now...I know you're still leading me there and I am closer today than I was yesterday.
God I ask you to fix me and to deliver me so you can pour into me purpose and more faith, love, understanding, and wisdom today. Because you said you can't pour new wine in an old bottle. Have your way Jesus.

Love your daughter, Mandy.