"If that is God's will, SO BE IT!"

This past hours I have been on the phone with my God-Niece. She is so adorable and I just love her so much!

Little kids really knows how to put a smile on your face. Especially when they tell you how much they love you and wants you to come over. Hahas.

I just pray that she grows up to be as beautiful and strong as her Auntie ( Tykhia!) one day.........

I been trying to help out more at home but the more I tried, the more I notice something.

All these years my parents complaint about me not doing any chores or how I'm so ungrateful at times. I notice the reason why.

It's because they don't let me do anything but it's not their fault.

We were having a Chinese dinner this Sunday after service. I was supposedly making, "lo mein," but when I woke up this morning, my mom was already making it for me.

She didnt wake me up because she wanted me to sleep a little bit more.

Or like the times when I told her I will wash the dishes and she goes ahead and do them anyways, saying I'm slow.

Or when I told her I will carry the groceries, she said I'm clumsy and weak and that she can handle it.

All these are evidences of love, and I'm sadden that it took me this long to notice and it's saddens me that I can't do anything to show my gratitude. My parents does everything for me because they love me and wants the best for me. But at the same time it has given them a mindset that I can't take care of myself or I'm not capable of doing household jobs or anything that includes me lifting a finger.

All morning I was trying to help her make the lo-mein but all she did was push me to the side and I ended up standing there, watching her.

As much as I appreciated it, I was upset because right there I seen that I still have a lot of growing up to do. It makes me want to want to learn to have more self discipline.

So from there, time to STEP UP my game.

But one step at a time!

- Courage Man